Sunday, June 6, 2010
Come on lady - do the motivation
It's late Sunday afternoon. I'm sitting in my sewing room for the first time in weeks. The sun is streaming through the windows. I do a little bit of mending, and then turn my attention to some half-made sack bags ... and wonder "why?". Why am I doing this? More importantly, why am I not enjoying this?
I look outside and wish I was there. Even though I know I've already spent the whole morning in the garden, getting my hands and boots dirty for the first time in weeks. It was so good to get back out there, and not feel the pull of the sewing machine or the pull of my bed after all the viruses I've had lately. It was especially good to spend an hour this afternoon hiking on the side of a mountain, enjoying the sounds and smells of the bush. I've promised myself that we will do a hike every weekend during winter. I need to balance my spare time a lot better than I have been. I need to stop saying "yes" when I really want to say "no".
I'm going to cook a big batch of shepherd's pie and chilli to keep us in warm winter food for a couple of weeks. So the sewing machine is being turned off for the evening. It can wait until tomorrow night, when I'm hoping the motivation and love will return.
It really does need to return - I have another market in a month.